So my best friend is also my ex and he's the greatest friend I have, we talk everyday and we're just really close. Well he and his wife are trying to fix their relationship (or see if they really even want to). She doesn't really like me (In fact I'd go so far as to say that she hates me which is fair) so to prove to her that he's really trying to make an effort to work on their relationship while she's visiting him (so he says) he's not going to talk to me. Which is fine I totally get that and honestly I hope that they do work things out , I'm just kinda bummed because I know if they do fix their relationship that it means I won't be able to talk to him any more. Cause if we do talk and she finds out they're back and square one or worse. I don't want that on my head. As sad as it sounds he's really the only friend I have left. My last 'best friend' wasn't good for me and he helped me really see that and finally break it off with her. I owe him my sanity for that. I wish him the best he really deserves it, I just wish it meant I could still talk to him. But you can't change the past and I can only wait and see. Thanks for reading/listening.
I am a dreamer, an endless optimist, a hopeless romantic. I sometimes look for the best in everyone, and at the very least learn something from everyone. I am a creative soul although allowing my creative side to come out is sometimes harder than it should be. I am inquisitive by nature, although rarely get my questions answered because I lack the courage to ask many of them. I fear failure, being alone and loosing the ones I love; who I would do anything for. I love the smell of fresh made pastries (cakes mostly). I’m quite I like to listen and people watch to take things in. I write a lot, fiction mostly and I very rarely finish a story. I like to keep a thing of icing in the frig for when I get a craving for sweets. I’m as random as the day is long; I’m not the sharpest crayon in the box, but I’m not the dullest.