Is nothing but a mean old nasty bitter woman! And I say woman because us ladies we know how to fight, while men will attack each other physically us ladies go for the brain. We'll fuck with your head before ever touching a single finger nail to your nasty ass body! We'll mess it up then when you're how ever we feel you should be we'll "junkpunch"* you and walk away. But the reason it's just so mean is because I'm only TWENTY years old! I don't need a baby, I don't have a job, a car, I'm not in college, though it's not like I don't want to be I really do. I wanna have all that stuff back, but since I don't have any of that I sure as hell can't have a damn baby!
But then you get that old nagging woman in the back of you mind saying crap like 'it's ok, if you do get a baby everything will work out' then you get logic piping up saying crap like 'oh sure everything will be just fine when the state takes your baby away and your parents beat the leaving crap out of you for having a baby in the first place!' Then they sit there and bitch and fight like you're not even there; the whole time all you want is a little baby to hold and take care of damn it!
*deep breath in* *deep breath out*
Sorry it's late and I'm pretty tired it's about 11:11 pm (make a wish!) so I'm getting pretty hyper. Make since don't it! Yeah the more tired I get the more hyper I get, or the longer I stay up the more hyper I get unless I really don't have a damn thing to do then I just PTFO!
And since I got you all here I'm really kinda worried becase lately I've really kinda been (in my head) wanting another military boyfriend. Not just any ol' single, good looking, 20-25 year old, about 5'8"-7', but a MILITARY guy that fits all that. Which really isn't fair because I won't limit myself to strictly blond, blue eyed guys why should I restrick myself to strictly military guys- though military men do it better lol. Though I've got a hypothesis about why I'm just wanting another military guy;
One: I'm not over my last one yet.
Two: The forum I'm on, it's called Military Significant Other Support. So just about everyone on there has a MSO and it's kinda like 'I want that... *pout*' Ya' know? It is in no way their fault, I love them all they're like a huge ass amount of friends that you only have to put up with as much as you choose (lol), but really they're all really nice. Besides it's not like I can say 'Hey would you mind not talking about your SO on a site designed to help your type of relationship' I mean that's bull that's like going to a white person and saying 'Hey can you stop being white?'
Three: I think another reason I like MSOS (for short) so much is because of how active and welcoming, and non-judgemental everyone on there is. I mean yeah you'll have your fights and crap, but what good relationship doesn't? I've yet to find a site as welcoming and active as theirs, I mean christ I've been on their so much that I've posted 316 posts (I joined in Sep '08)! I bet you 50 bucks I don't make it till Christmas on this blog thing before I just stop posting, suddenly going from pulling shit out of my ass to post about every day to being lucky if I post at all.
*Junkpunch is a new term I learned on the movie 'What Happens in Vegas' it's a good movie (see below for the long hall of what I thought about it). It's a funny term that should be spread through out the world! *evil laughter*
