Bitter Sweet [IMG Heavy]

It sucks that my nephew, Ayden, is already old enough to roll over- he's about 6 months old -and I haven't seen him yet. : I just kills me that I haven't seen him yet, but I'm glad he's doing so good.
Hopefully I'll be able to see him before he's old enough to drink

Just being goofy and cute.


Showing off how good he can hold his head up while on his tummy.


Just being on his tummy.


Chilling on the couch.


Out for a walk.


Getting ready for his walk.


Just being Ayden.


Ayden & Emma playing on their tummies.


Playing with his caterpillar.


Rolling over.


Almost there.


Tada! !


Sleeping like a baby

I'm so Proud of Myself!!

I just worked out for 8 mins your going to laugh at me though when I tell you what too; Tae-Bo 8-minuet workout with Billy Blanks lol I got it at Goodwill for 99 cents.
The worst part? His outfit, what does he wear, spandex? Any ways I may try and go back to GW they had 2 other workouts for the same price. But it was really nice because he kinda warmed us into it then had a cool down at the end. And I'm not in pleading-for-death pain, but I still felt like I got a workout. It was so nice. I figure if I do this then my other work out which is (15 mins) alternating between them I should be doing good, since I can't really watch what I eat. (we get our food from a food pantry and we can't exactly place special orders lol)

Another one bites the dust-

So my best friend is also my ex and he's the greatest friend I have, we talk everyday and we're just really close. Well he and his wife are trying to fix their relationship (or see if they really even want to). She doesn't really like me (In fact I'd go so far as to say that she hates me which is fair) so to prove to her that he's really trying to make an effort to work on their relationship while she's visiting him (so he says) he's not going to talk to me. Which is fine I totally get that and honestly I hope that they do work things out , I'm just kinda bummed because I know if they do fix their relationship that it means I won't be able to talk to him any more. Cause if we do talk and she finds out they're back and square one or worse. I don't want that on my head. As sad as it sounds he's really the only friend I have left. My last 'best friend' wasn't good for me and he helped me really see that and finally break it off with her. I owe him my sanity for that.
I wish him the best he really deserves it, I just wish it meant I could still talk to him. But you can't change the past and I can only wait and see.

Thanks for reading/listening.

xoxo
Tatiana

I Love My MSOS GIRLS!

I just wanted to thank my girls over at Military SOS you all are the best!
I love that fact that I can come to you all with anything and I get
real answers and advice and support. Thank you all so much!



I fucking love you girls!

I <3 Vampires- It's apparently an Online 'Show' or something...

I have no idea if this is like 'real' or if it's just people doing a spoof and making fun of Twilight Fan (along with other Vampire Fans) or what is going on, but neh lol it's kinda entertaining... what do you think?


Link>> http://www.take180.com/show/I_Heart_Vampires/h1a

How my 21st birthday went! <3

everyone, first sorry I've been MIA I don't have internet at home and can't really get it on my phone so I haven't really been on here.
But I'm at the library now and I just wanted to kinda up date everyone.
So for Valentine's Day my ex/friend sent me some yellow mini roses along with a little stuffed dog for my Birthday which was on Monday (2.16). So then on Monday I knew we wouldn't be doing anything big cause we don't really have any money. But my friend (TJ) called me at midnight and sang me 'happy birthday' in his special TJ way, then my rents wished me happy birthday, my grandma, and some friends on my facebook and myspace pages wished me happy birthday. Then the friend that got me the flowers called and sang to me too lol. So it was pretty nice, then later in the day I got the BEST present EVER. My SIL called to wish me a happy birthday and Ayden (my nephew) was cooing in the background and she like 'Yeah Ayden wanted to wish Aunt Tatiana happy birthday too' and then after she said that she's like 'Oh yep he even smiled when I said your name'
OMG that was just great I loved it! But then before we hung up she put the phone up to him and he cooed and did little baby talk and I was just so happy it totally made my day. (Heres a link to the forum where I posted pictures of him) so even though I didn't get any big expensive presents I still got the best present.
Oh also my parents got me a card and said that we'd do something/more this weekend. I'm hoping we can go to 'Bubba Gump' so I can have my "first legal drink"

Alright I may have to kill someone...

In May of 09 X-men Origins: Wolverine (trailer here) is supposed to be coming out which totally has me in like an almost constant geek-out of happiness one because I love X-Men and two because Gambit (Remy) will be in it and I've seen the trailer like a million times because I was a dork and found a way to download it on to my computer. -__-; But I found some pictures from the trailer of Taylor who will be playing MY Gambit and I just realized that his eyes aren't glowing!! And I swear to God it better just be that the pictures aren't edited yet because if in that movie Taylor/Remy's eyes aren't Red Pupils Black Iris' there will be a very angry blog posted about how they are so screwing me over because first with Nightcrawler not being fuzzy in the LEAST and now with Remy's eyes not being right it's like they're against us! (Us being the fans) I mean part of Remy's charm is his eyes! Part of his look, part of what makes him Remy is his eyes! Not just his powers or his charm but his eyes! I mean it's the full packaged deal if you don't have the eyes then he's just a would be- wanna be- ain't ganna be!

And they better get his accent right also I can literally see myself crying in the movie theater if his eyes aren't right and his accent isn't right I won't leave because it's expensive to go to the movies lately, but my life as I know it will be ruined. It'll be over. All because some stupid ass twit couldn't take the time to get some eyes and an accent right! And if they don't know how to do the accent all they got to do is NOT HAVE REMY! I mean I've lived with out Remy in the movies this long I can wait until stupid people get it right. I mean I'd rather go with out then have 'Them' ruine him for me. I mean there are tones of X-Men Cartoons where “they” got his voice/accent perfect! (Mutters:and is what I base all Remy voices off of) so those of you who have connections to anyone that can influence this for the better I would greatly appreciate it if you could work on it. (And by connections I mean either spiritually or personally) or if you could e-mail me a click of the movie to help ease my nerves that would be great and I would love that. :D

Anyways I think that's it oh yeah Happy New Years!!

I'll be 21 in 13 some odd days.

Jump for Joy :bliss I got out of the house! With a boy!!

So I meet this guy online [the only place I seem to meet people any more] and we've been talking for... about a week give or take, and so he's like 'I'm feeling spunky lets meet in real life and catch a movie' so I'm like 'sure!' So we tried to last night, but his friend ended up needing him so we postponed till tonight. So we saw the movie 'Underword: Rise of the Lycan' and I think Josh (the guy) put it best when he said 'It's like 'Twilight' meets 'Lord of the Rings'.” I mean acting was cool, graphics were cool, but the plot and dialog were so.... 'Romeo & Juliet' I mean really people enough with the tragic loves already it's getting really old!

Sorry any ways, so back to the guy, he's a total cutie. About 6'2”, I don't think he's over weight for his size but I wouldn't put him at 'physically best' for his size either. I like it, plus he gives good hugs and smells good! On the way to the movie and on the way back [he picked me up and paid how sweet is he?] we were talking and laughing, but I think I did most the talking, but I think he just wasn't sure what to say and stuff ya' know? But he was a total sweet heart, I don't know if it counts as a date or not and I don't know if there will be more to come but it was nice to get out of the house, even if it was just to a movie for like an hour and a half.

Anyways I'm totally going to PTFO I'm really pooped and all I did was watch a movie how sad. I might add more as I remember, but like I said I'm tired women


Xoxoxo
-Tatiana

My Schutzengel* called!

OMG! He just called me like maybe an hour ago (lost net other wise this would have had ben up earlier) so we talked for a bit then he had to go, then he called me back and we talked for another couple minuets. He's over in El Paso, TX (Fort Bliss) apparently the place is huge so he wanted to get a cell phone and a bike so he could get around with out the taxis fair burning a whole in his pocket. So he got his new phone (just a basic plan) and he call me like right after he got it like he was still in AFEX and then we hung up so we could go get his bike then he called me again because... both his tires went flat. (I told him to take it back to AFEX to see if they'll like give him a discount on new tires or brand new ones, I doubt it but it never hurt to ask).
So yeah I'm trying not to skip around the house cause my dad will make fun of me, but it's really hard to keep my feet on the ground! Thus far '09 rocks my socks! anyways I just had to tell someone and you all seemed like the best place to float along with cloud 9 with out getting made fun of/teased lol.
It's funny though cause they got him in a trailer type thing instead of a dorm like room (like what he had in Korea) but they put him in the wrong one! The one they put him in was for Women and well... he's not he's a man. <3
Anyways I'm just excited that he's state side now and it's easier to see him and talk to him, cause now I can call him!!

*'Schutzengel' is German for 'Guardian Angel', he's got it tattooed on his back and it's also kinda one of my nicknames for him

Bum day...

OK so it started about midnight when my friend and I got in a fight, a pretty bad one, then I went to sleep then she IMed me at around 5am (I get IMs on my phone) so we kinda talked it out a little bit and I went back to sleep.
So then I get up I'm fine mildly perky until I drop my mom off at work some random guy said that our gas something or other was leaking which put me in a really crappy mood cause I'm always worried about the van. It's are only mode of transportation and we don't have any money to really do anything if it broke down or anything like that. Cause my mom works at one side of town and my dad works all the way on the other. It wouldn't be pretty, then I got my effing headache back, its in the same spot it was the last few days I've gotten it. My eyes are killing me and I feel like I'm going to throw up at any minuet.
So yeah it's just a really lame ass damn 

Happy New Years!! + Survey

Happy 2009 Everyone! 

Kiss you're lover if you got one and kiss your pets if you got one of dem!

Will you be looki​ng for a new job?
Yeppers.

Will you be looki​ng for a new relat​ionsh​ip?​
Maybe lol..

New house​?​
Maybe I don't know


What will you do diffe​rent in 2009?​


New Years​ resol​ution​?​
-Get In Shape

-Follow Through with my plan for the future.





What will you not be doing​ in 2009?​
I don't know *shrug*

Weddi​ng plans​?​
No- Thank God!


What'​s on your calen​dar?​
Nothing really lol



What can'​t you wait for?
-Curtis coming home

-My 21^st Birthday

-Ayden's 1^st Birthday


What would​ you like to see happe​n diffe​rent?​
A better government.

What about​ yours​elf will you be chang​ing?​
Being​ healt​hier and more respo​nsibl​e

What happe​ned in '08 that you didn'​t think​ would​ ever happe​n?​
Nothing that I can really remember.


Will you be nicer​ to the peopl​e you care about​?​
I hope so ;/




Will you dress​ diffe​rentl​y this year than you did in 08?
lol ikd most likely things will hopefully changed and that be one of them.




Are you going​ to be in schoo​l in 09?
Yea

Will you make more money​ in 09?
lol most likely.

Are you going​ to drink​ on New Years​ Eve?
Not alcoholic drinks



Will you be nice to peopl​e you don'​t know?​
I'm alway​s nice


Do you expec​t 2009 to be a worse​ year for you than 2008?​
No I hope it's bette​r


How much did you chang​e from this time last year til now?
I'm starting to come 'out of my shell' and be more confident.

Do you plan on havin​g a child​?​
HELL NO! My brother already took care of that.


Will you still​ be frien​ds with the same peopl​e you are frien​ds with now?
I hope so; don't have many as is.

Major​ lifes​tyle chang​es?​
My heath, and possibly the job I plan on getting.

Will you be movin​g?​
Hopefully.


What will you make sure doesn​'​t happe​n in 2009 that happe​ned in 08?
Gaini​ng lots of weigh​t again​ x.x oops lol



What are your New Years​ Eve plans​?​
None


Will you have someo​ne to kiss at midni​ght?​
My cats lol


Wishe​s for 2009?​
More good exper​ience​s,​ bette​r finan​ces,​ and a healt​hier life