Unclaimed Tears

Unknown Tears

So last night for what ever reason I actually cried myself to sleep, which I haven’t done since I was in MI [my rents were seriously talking about divorce for the first real time] anyways so last night all the sudden I just started to cry and not the little ‘tear…tear… alright I’m good’ no it was the whole ‘sob… whimper… sob… whimper…’ all while I’m crying my own little river. It was horrible because it hurt, my eyes hurt, my throat hurt, my nose hurt, my whole head hurt. It sucked @$$!

But when I woke up I was fine like nothing happened, no headache- which I was very grateful for because those little bastards hurt like hell! And I didn’t have blood shot eyes nothing! I just liked a little pale and like I didn’t sleep well. Course then again I didn’t go to bed until like 1 something, and I had to wake up at like 9 something.

Anyways what’s really bugging me is the fact that I didn’t have a damn clue WHY I was crying, I didn’t know if I was crying because of Blayne, or Curtis, or just because I’m lonely, or because I’m depressed I didn’t have an effing clue as to why I was crying for all I know I could have had been crying for all those reasons and more. As far as I know there wasn’t something that really started it off, but when ever I opened my eyes I’d start all over again. I think I eventually fell asleep with my light on lol but anyways I think I’m done.

xoxo

Tatiana