The War is Over Lover

You fought hard and long you gave it your all and you didn't go down with out a fight.

But it's over now sweety. You did your best and no one blames you. We love and will miss you. And think of it this way at least you can snowboard on the clouds I think you at least deserve that. 

Blayne Tallent passed away last night surrounded by his mother, father, brother and sister at 9:30 last night. I'm blessed to be able to say that I knew him for as long and as well as I did. 

All my love and prays to his family and friends.

I can't believe he's gone. He was only a year younger then me its just not fair. All I've done since I found out is cry and shake. My eyes and nose are red and I feel sick, I keep throwing up a little and hoping that I'll get a call from him saying 'No Roy was just messing with ya'! I'm still here and kicking' but I know I won't... this wasn't how it was supposed to happen, he was supposed to beat it. This type of stuff just doesn't happen to people I know, to people I care about. This is the stuff you read about in papers that you read about happening to other people. He was supposed to grow up become a Doctor and save the world.
I don't wanna cry any more because I know it's pointless, but it's all I seem to be able to do right now. My eyes hurt too much and my head hurts too much. I just wish there was more I could of had done for him, I wish I could of had been there more for him. We dated a little bit but then he just kinda went MIA and in the past that's how all my relationships ended. I didn't even think about him possibly being in the hospital for something. I just took it and went on with my life... I can't even remember feeling this heart broken when my last boyfriend broke up with me (my most "serious" relationship).
I just hope he can forgive me... and I hope his family and friends find peace.